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DROWNED IN NIGHT

it’s harder to say it

with the sun beating down

not drowned in night

a slow reluctance

to meet our fate

and i don’t know why

it tastes so bitter to me

but i woke up here

and something is

making me weird

making me weird

you inspire me

to write lyrics to songs

because i don’t know 

what you think

the fear is always that 

i’m what i think they say

and it’s all one big joke

on me in the end

drowned in night

drowned in night

drowned in night

you inspire me

to write lyrics to songs

because i don’t know 

what you think

the fear is always that 

i’m what i think they say

and it’s all one big joke

on me in the end


drowned in night x 5 or 6 (i can’t remember)


old friend

old friend

how can i see you so

old friend

how can i let you go

old friend

this is the end of our time you’ll see

it’s been to long 

with you leaning on me

and i don’t need

to fight the solitary

mind i like it in here

once the storm blows over

i can’t do this anymore

i spent too long

running from you

and i know now 

what i gotta do

i gotta put you down

the way i always meant to

now i’m trying to find my piece

with the years i’ve wasted 

on each of your tantrums

you’ve been nothing 

but bad to me

now i’m stronger

than you know

and i’ll look you in the eye 

with the weight of the show

and a blinding reminder

of how we got here

to begin with

can’t do this anymore

LONG DECEMBER

am i starting to look down my nose

and who i was 

forgetting that all i am 

is from what i’ve done

giving it all up today

don’t have the strength

odds increase with age

can’t clear my mind to think

now i’m lying it’s an art

like telling kids

there’s nothing to fear

after dark

yeah i can’t remember

why i thought this would work

been a long december

how dare he 

call me out

for doing something i’m not supposed to do

follow my lead 

won’t falter

long leash and a shovel can’t free

from a distance

we all look faceless

nothing but eyes and stares

fear at the end are baseless

absorb the readiness cares

we can 

we can we can


yeah i can’t remember

why i thought this would work

been a long december


yeah yeah yeaaaaaaahhhhhhh


wicked guitar outro


RESTLESS


it’s a full moon tonight

and i’m restless and chasing demons

from way back

like when you watch a car wreck real slow

backed up for miles


what will we do when all is said and done

do we hurry up and die 

or fuck all and have some fun

don’t give us your which

i’ve always found a way to keep believing


i can’t feel anymore trying to release it

move along and look at something else

to cry about now

that i quit the sauce

the dark keeps me up 

wide eyed and yelling pulling scratching

at the secrets

in fits for revelations 

biblical in the noise

just hammering the nails

and building up tracks

this dishwasher is so goddamn full

there isn’t anything worse than this

just looking to lay siege

amps and strings

the hiss and steam of a party killed too soon

the hiss and steam of a party killed too soon


what will we do when all is said and done

do we curl up and die

or fuck all and have some fun

don’t give us your which

i’ve always found a way to keep believing


i know i’m supposed to teach you manners

but i’d rather teach you to throw a punch

world won’t give a shit

world won’t give a shit

world won’t give a shit

which side of the plate

your fork is on…………….

MAKE

dance

alone at night

find a message to yourself

never be in the light

can’t share with anyone else

i’ll keep on moving 

see what it comes to

same old theme

just gotta prove to you


we all have the same dream

something isn’t right

we all feel the same thing

we don’t know how to fight

something isn’t right

we don’t know how to fight


future we all dreamed

hasn’t come to bare

freedom doesn’t gleam

and the truth isn’t fucking shared

porn bots and tracking

and spam so smart it sees

the forest for what she’s lacking 

and the details of the trees

we don’t seem to have a way

to stop this all from coming

so we log in and pay to play

and keep that monster running

yeah we keep that monster running

gotta keep that monster running

oh shit oh shit oh no oh no oh no


we all have the same dream

something isn’t right

we all feel the same thing

we don’t know how to fight

we all have the same dream

we don’t see the light

something isn’t right

we all feel the same thing

we don’t know how to fight

we don’t know how to fight

we don’t know how to fight

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END

The only way to know where you live
Is to walk around at night
Looking out from the inside
Wherever there is light

Take a hit and I watch the sky
Kiss the ground
With scorch and doom
Turn to run and find my home
The end came way to soon

I take it back
I take it back

Baby crying takes me back
To when I first held you in my arms
Promising full soul
To keep you free from any harm

Now I watch like sand
As it all slowly melts away
The hero in me wants to help
But the real me runs away

I take it back
I take it back
This can’t be how it ends

Call it a moment of clarity
It hits me in the face
There isn’t another one of these
It can’t be replaced

It’s raining ash like a doomsday snow
If it’s going to crash I don’t want to know

My something good
Will be reading this everytime
I don’t believe
Figuring out
How to change
Figuring Out
How to see

I take it back
This isn’t how it ends

I take it back
I take it back


ONCE

Once you told me
Don’t run wild into the night
Alone and scared
With that fire in your eyes

Don’t drag me down with you
The notes you hear
Won’t make a sound if you don’t move

Once I held you
Until we both disappeared
I was wrong woke up alone
Your voice still in my ear

Don’t drag me down with you
The notes you hear
Won’t make a sound if you don’t move

Why was I so blind
I’m already here
I wish it was clear
Which way from here

Chorus out


STAY

I don’t know what I’d do if you left me
I like to think I’m tough enough
But I don’t know what I’d do if you left me

I’m not done trying
Don’t walk away from me
I’m not done trying
Don’t you want to stay with me

How would you know
How much I need you
I like to think I tell you every fucking day
How would you know
How much I need you
Want you
Love you

I’m not done tryin
Don’t walk away from me
I’m not done tryin
Don’t you wanna stay with me


TRY

 

Wake up
Look outside
Grey so thick
It mutes the sky
See you pass
Catch your eye
Brings me back
To why

Last thing I want to see
And the first thing that I wanna hear
Is the site of you smiling
And the sound of you coming near
I’ve been loving you
For all this time
It fuels it all
It’s why

When it’s dark I try to find you
You always know what to do
The road is paved but barely
But for us we’ll push through
I’m scared to be happy
I know it all ends
And I know just a feeling
Doesn’t it always make it a thing
Being happy and satisfied
Is not really what I do
You help me to be right
No matter what I put myself through
I want to let you into my world
Never sure how
You find it in you to to love me
Let me give it back to you now

Chorus

You’re why I try


POP SONG

 

I sing until my face turns blue
Doesn’t matter what I’m going through
All that matters is I get the fire out
Can’t sleep see the doubt

Now I have your ear
Something pretty to hear
We’re all gonna die
If we don’t start to try

I singing to me as much as to you
So much to do
And still I dance all night long
Alone in the barn
Fucking a song
No reason to go this long
Is what I hear them say
So I lose myself
And I chase the plays

Chorus

Need to understand

 


INERTIA

 

Don't have the time to
Enjoy the process
Comes on so strong
It's hard not to rush
Got so much in me trying to get out
Spend so much time trying to figure out
Now I wonder
Who is going to take
And get all I've been hiding away
I just hope that they get
A little something from me

Future is flying blinding towards us
Tiny screens a prison cell
It's that loneliness that traps the truth
It's that heaviness that forces the tell

I should do more
For those around me
Who got handed the shit
A foot on the neck
I hope in my life
I find a purpose
Something I can point to
And say I did that
Well it don't look good
No one cares
And I'm not that much to look at
And theres so much to look at

See him standing
On the corner
With a can in his hand
Can I send something his way
I don't have time for this shit
I've got my own fucking
Internet porn bill to pay

Can we move ourselves to action
Is there some magic word
Or do we go down sitting
No one mourns a herd

Chorus


OUTSIDER

You have no idea
What it is to want something with everything
To hear something and cry with loss
To drink late and wish for the night
To never end
When we say
Sad is happy

You don't know
You might never
If you don't know
You might never know

Dance in a window
Late night New York City
Naked and yelling
Happier than you'll ever see me
Maybe we wish
For something softer
I don't know
Maybe humanity will find
Something else

You don't know
You might never
You don't know
You might never know

When I'm gone
And the schlocky fuckers
Cover my songs
Then I guess I've made it
Finally made it

That's what it takes