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The only way to know where you live
Is to walk around at night
Looking out from the inside
Wherever there is light

Take a hit and I watch the sky
Kiss the ground
With scorch and doom
Turn to run and find my home
The end came way to soon

I take it back
I take it back

Baby crying takes me back
To when I first held you in my arms
Promising full soul
To keep you free from any harm

Now I watch like sand
As it all slowly melts away
The hero in me wants to help
But the real me runs away

I take it back
I take it back
This can’t be how it ends

Call it a moment of clarity
It hits me in the face
There isn’t another one of these
It can’t be replaced

It’s raining ash like a doomsday snow
If it’s going to crash I don’t want to know

My something good
Will be reading this everytime
I don’t believe
Figuring out
How to change
Figuring Out
How to see

I take it back
This isn’t how it ends

I take it back
I take it back


ONCE

Once you told me
Don’t run wild into the night
Alone and scared
With that fire in your eyes

Don’t drag me down with you
The notes you hear
Won’t make a sound if you don’t move

Once I held you
Until we both disappeared
I was wrong woke up alone
Your voice still in my ear

Don’t drag me down with you
The notes you hear
Won’t make a sound if you don’t move

Why was I so blind
I’m already here
I wish it was clear
Which way from here

Chorus out


STAY

I don’t know what I’d do if you left me
I like to think I’m tough enough
But I don’t know what I’d do if you left me

I’m not done trying
Don’t walk away from me
I’m not done trying
Don’t you want to stay with me

How would you know
How much I need you
I like to think I tell you every fucking day
How would you know
How much I need you
Want you
Love you

I’m not done tryin
Don’t walk away from me
I’m not done tryin
Don’t you wanna stay with me


TRY

 

Wake up
Look outside
Grey so thick
It mutes the sky
See you pass
Catch your eye
Brings me back
To why

Last thing I want to see
And the first thing that I wanna hear
Is the site of you smiling
And the sound of you coming near
I’ve been loving you
For all this time
It fuels it all
It’s why

When it’s dark I try to find you
You always know what to do
The road is paved but barely
But for us we’ll push through
I’m scared to be happy
I know it all ends
And I know just a feeling
Doesn’t it always make it a thing
Being happy and satisfied
Is not really what I do
You help me to be right
No matter what I put myself through
I want to let you into my world
Never sure how
You find it in you to to love me
Let me give it back to you now

Chorus

You’re why I try


POP SONG

 

I sing until my face turns blue
Doesn’t matter what I’m going through
All that matters is I get the fire out
Can’t sleep see the doubt

Now I have your ear
Something pretty to hear
We’re all gonna die
If we don’t start to try

I singing to me as much as to you
So much to do
And still I dance all night long
Alone in the barn
Fucking a song
No reason to go this long
Is what I hear them say
So I lose myself
And I chase the plays

Chorus

Need to understand

 


INERTIA

 

Don't have the time to
Enjoy the process
Comes on so strong
It's hard not to rush
Got so much in me trying to get out
Spend so much time trying to figure out
Now I wonder
Who is going to take
And get all I've been hiding away
I just hope that they get
A little something from me

Future is flying blinding towards us
Tiny screens a prison cell
It's that loneliness that traps the truth
It's that heaviness that forces the tell

I should do more
For those around me
Who got handed the shit
A foot on the neck
I hope in my life
I find a purpose
Something I can point to
And say I did that
Well it don't look good
No one cares
And I'm not that much to look at
And theres so much to look at

See him standing
On the corner
With a can in his hand
Can I send something his way
I don't have time for this shit
I've got my own fucking
Internet porn bill to pay

Can we move ourselves to action
Is there some magic word
Or do we go down sitting
No one mourns a herd

Chorus


OUTSIDER

You have no idea
What it is to want something with everything
To hear something and cry with loss
To drink late and wish for the night
To never end
When we say
Sad is happy

You don't know
You might never
If you don't know
You might never know

Dance in a window
Late night New York City
Naked and yelling
Happier than you'll ever see me
Maybe we wish
For something softer
I don't know
Maybe humanity will find
Something else

You don't know
You might never
You don't know
You might never know

When I'm gone
And the schlocky fuckers
Cover my songs
Then I guess I've made it
Finally made it

That's what it takes